11 weeks 5 days

So this week is the 12 week mark. I am trying not to get too excited but hoping all goes well, I want to finally tell my girlfriends next week! So although Christmas is over, I was thinking about getting these ornaments from cafepress.com. Giving them to E, Jess, Amanda, Amy, Kelly, Karla, Katie and Angel. And of course the only real Auntie, Kari. I might just order 10 just for fun.

PS: Mat thinks I am putting way to much thought into this but I already feel bad for not telling them for 13 weeks. AND, they are really special to me and I want to tell them in a special way







In other news, and probably more imporante news, WE HEARD A HEARTBEAT! Mat got me a 3 month subscription to FHM for Christmas. I was a little confused until I flipped the paper over and it's really a Fetal Heart Monitor of 3 months! He almost had me stumped! So we finally got to try it last night and after Mat tried forever, I got a heartbeat in about 3 mins. It takes a woman, right?! It was so aswesome to hear. I am going to try not to do it daily so I don't freak myself out. So Wednesday will be the 12 week mark. I have an ultrasound on Thursday with my regular Dr. And then the first of 3 BIG ultrasounds on Monday.

Okay, I just lied to my girlfriends

I feel really guilty but I just flat out lied (in an email) and told them that I was not pregnant. I feel really, really bad and I hope they later understand my reasoning. I just want to wait until the first tri is over or at least until we are at week 11 or 12 to tell friends. I even think I will be nervous to share the news at that point. Ugh! This is hard!

These are the pictures from my appointment on Dec 7.

I should NOT complaining but...

I should NOT complaining since m/s means that I am still pregnant but man I feel like crap! I have probably taken one sick day in the last 7 years of working (knock on wood). I am just not used to this queasy stomach and the about-to-puke-but-don't-puke feeling!

Now that I know what this is...I'm at 8 weeks today! Woohoo! I am going for another u/s on Friday with the OB. I can't wait! Other than the m/s, all is going well so far ::fingers crossed::!

Do's and don'ts of eating during a pregnancy
From a segment on Today Show this morning...
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22104759/

Today's update

Today's update: I have had some m/s all week. But then over the weekend it stopped which now has me worried. I still feel/look really bloated and I am ready for that to go down. I have another u/s on Friday and I can't wait to get there and see if we see anything new. It will be our first appointment with the OB. Woohoo! Fingers crossed that the symptoms have just subsided for the weekend and will be back giving me confidence. I am trying to continue to workout. Mostly walking but it's getting colder so I might have to move things inside.

I have felt like crap pretty much all week

I have felt like crap pretty much all week. It's gotten worse over the past couple days. I feel like I am right on the edge of puking...but I don't. It's like the worse feeling! I remember others saying they felt this way. Is it m/s? Who knows but I get it throughout the entire day. I was feeling so ill last night that I just went to bed (9:30pm) just to hopefully stop feeling this way. But I got up this morning and still felt the same way. Boo! It may have started last week but this week it's worse. I hate feeling this way! Other than that I am just bloated so I am ready for that to go down and a belly to appear.

Nest Questions:
I know this question probably has been asked many times over...and I know it's different for everyone. But I workout pretty regularly and I don't seem to be losing anything which is find (of course). But today I feel like my "pooch" is protruding from my pants!! I am probably just bloated. Today I feel like all my co-workers are staring at my "pooch" and wondering what the deal is. Just wondering, when did you start to show?

Has your doctor given you a due date or have you just figured it out on your own. My dr hasn't mentioned a due date to me but maybe that comes further down the line. TIA!

What a 30th!!

Let me just tell you...What a 30th b-day I had! It was simply wonderful!
The day started with a trip to doctors office. I was soooooooo nervious. But everything was fine! So he/she might be a little bigger than a grain of rice but everything looks great! I am measuring 6 weeks and 6 days so that is perfect with where I thought I was. We saw a tiny tiny heartbeat which was the best sight EVER! We also finally told our parents and Kari/Jarrod. They are really excited and we got thier reactions on video tape. It was perfect! We still want to wait to tell friends/extended family till after the first triments. Our first OB appointment and u/s next week.



Back to my birthday. I got so many text messages and emails saying happy b-day. Mat had the day off as well and that was great. We slept in. Hung out. When to Cheesecake Factory for lunch. Went to Best Buy to decide if I want to keep my b-day gift from Mat. He got me an itouch and of course I kept it! It's great! And then came back home and hung out. I went for a walk with the dog and then we went to Stoney River Legendary Steakhouse for dinner. YUMM! So it was a fabulous day!

THEN today is just an extension because I came and I had some beautiful white iris and...looks like...lilies waiting to open at my desk. My friends from college (Elizabeth, Jess, Amy, Kelly, Karla and Amanda) sent me flowers at work not knowing that I took yesterday off.

THEN Katie just walked in (6am mind you) with a huge tray of homemade Strawberry cupcakes (my fav). I am soooooooooo excited to eat them although they don't sound really good right now (it's only 8am), I am sure they will be this afternoon.

Anyway, it was great to be reminded that I am so loved!

Having him home first helps...

Mat came home last night and but my nerves to rest. Things are going okay for me. No cramping, bleeding, etc. Which as I posted before, almost kinda worries me. I posted over the weekend that my pregnancy symptoms mysteriously went away and so now I am kinda freakin. But I get my next u/s tomorrow and that is going to give me a huge sigh of relief (barring everything is okay). My fingers are crossed that just because my symptoms have subsided that I am still pregnant.

trying to stay positive...

Okay, I am back to worrying again. This sucks. I don't feel anything different today. I know I need to stay positive. I have another u/s on Tuesday but Tuesday seems soooooooooo farrrr away! Just wanted to vent. Anyone feeling the same way?

I'm feeling good this Sunday morning...

I'm feeling good this Sunday morning. My breasts are getting huge and darker. No cramping to speak about. Mat and I are having a huge moral dilemma's about whether to tell out families and friends. But our reasons for keeping things hush is personal. We want this one to stick before we start sharing the news. And with our families of course first. I don't know if we will be able to wait until Christmas but hopefully we will get a good sign at the first OB appointment.

Otherwise I am just feeling giant and overweight. Sometime I think everyone is looking at me like, wow...she's gained some weight! Oh well. I need to get back into working out and that should make me feel much better.

First dr.'s visit and things look...

GOOD! I went the Dr. today for my first ultrasound and blood work. Everything looks good :::fingers crossed::: Based on my period start date, I should be 6 weeks ago but the ultrasound and the late BFP I got shows that I am a early 5 weeks. She wants me to start taking one baby aspirin a day and wrote me a percription for progesterone (which I will take twice a day).

Other than that she gave us a picture which gives us lots of hope!
Blood work today and the beginning of next week.
Another ultrasound next week after Thanksgiving.


It's soooooo hard not to get your hopes up. I want to tell everyone and no one all at the same time! That doesn't even make sense but you all know what I mean! If this one sticks, we will tell everyone at the end of the 1st tri, Christmas Day!

Okay, things are becoming more promising! I know it's early but I feel like it's going to stick! Sticky dust! Sticky dust! Sticky dust! Mat and I tested again after work just so I could see a pretty pink line and we sure did! We are soooooooo excited!

This week has been good. I am pretty gassy and of course, nervous. I have only had a couple cramps in the evening here and there. Nothing alarming which is good. We go to the doctor tomorrow to probably do an ultrasound and some blood work. Mat will come with me so that will be fun.

We watched a program tonight called Conception to Birth and it's kinda freaky. We watched just up until all the birthing stuff and stopped. Why ruin the surprise, right? We will see what the Dr. says tomorrow. Good thoughts! Good thoughts! Good thoughts!

Looking for some major sticky dust please!

November 10 = BFP!

Well on cycle day 40 we finally saw a faint pink line! Woohoo! It sucks not being able to be fully excited about a BFP but I am letting myself be a little happy. And the Mat is thinking he has some amazing aim so he is a happy boy!

This morning I ran a 5k with Amy and was thinking about it the whole time. Is my blood pressure too high? Should I be running? Will this affect the pregnancy at all? But at that point I didn't even know for sure if I was actually pregnant.

So I came home and Mat finally got home. We took a test immediately. It didn't take 10 mins to see the faint line. Good thing I had purchased so many Dollar Tree tests that morning!

Last night we had a big test of going to the Rohden's wedding and playing the fake drink game. People were questioning me left and right. Mat did a great job of getting me drinks that looked exactly like scotch on the rocks or vodka tonic. It was kinda fun although the bartenders thought we were strange!

If this works out, we will be finishing up the first tri around Christmas and plan on telling friends & family at that time. We didn't let anyone know about the first pregnancy and then miscarriage. We thought it was best to keep things on the downlow until the first tri. Fingers crossed this one sticks!!

I am still feeling hungry. No cramping. I am not peeing every 15 seconds like I was before. I am getting stressed about having to eat correctly now. But other than that, I am feeling pretty good!

Since the first miscarriage I haven't felt myself in weight and the way I look. I am working out but it doesn't seem to be effecting me at all. I will continue to do so and hopefully I won't gain a million pounds! I talked to my step instructor last week and he just wants me to take out a riser. But other than that, I can continue in the class. Good! Cause I love that class! So as the days get colder I am still going to try and workout once a day.

New dates of mention:

New dates of mention:
Period on start date was Oct 2, 2007
Ovualation on maybe Oct 15, 16, or 17
Period was supposed Oct 30
Test on Oct 31 = BFN
Test on Nov 4 = BFN
Test on Nov 6 = BFN
It's currently Nov 6 and still no period!
My boobs are so sore and I am super hungry. Pretty sleepy most of the time. Symptoms are much of the same as before but no cramping which is a good thing. I have no dates to base my cycle on cause I get pregnant the first go around. But it did take me 42 days after the first day of my period to get a BFP. If I can hold off and wait to test, 42 days will be next Tuesday.

Okay so the wait is over!!!
On Tuesday, just when Mat said it would, it happened.
It's been 5 weeks (Yesterday) since my miscarriage. Mat called it last week and was like, "don't worry, you will get it on Tuesday". I thought he was crazy! Tuesday was also my cut-off date to call my Dr and find out where the hell AF was! And what happened at 5:30am? AF came to town! YES! Not sure what's worse. The excruciating wait for AF or the necessary protected sex! Glad both are over. The Dr's say 4-6 weeks and they are right!

The Dr had me come back in yesterday, August 22. She did another u/s and nothing had changed. She just called me this morning and my levels are down for the first time. Somewhere in the 300's so that's good. I am still bleeding but hopefully that will stop eventually. Something strange came out of me this morning. I had Mat take a look but we weren't alarmed. Maybe it was the blood clot? Who knows. Can I stop bleeding already?

I called and left a message with my Dr. She had me come in right away. Mat went with me which was great. The cramping started again around 8am so I was hurting. After a long wait we did the ultrasound and my cervix was surprisingly closed. And my levels from Friday were up to 512. So I took blood again but it's most likely a miscarriage. She wants to watch me just incase it could be an optopic pregnancy. It's so early that they are hoping I miscarry on my own. Although no one knows how long that will take. I am hoping soon so I can wait the month, get my period, and move on. I am in some pain now but Tylenol is certainly helping!

Dr called and levels are the same as last week. Most definitely it's a miscarriage and chances are not good for an optopic which is a good thing. I am going to take it easy this week. I am going to go in on Thursday for more blood work to make sure my levels are going down.

Mat has been soooo kind and helpful. I love him for being so supportive even though I know he is disappointed.

Time to move on and wait till this is over! I am hopeful for the next time around :-)

Sunday

Ouch! I have been at work for only an hour when I started cramping. I just popped a couple Tylenol so hopefully that will calm my uterus for a bit and I can finish my shift.

After posting something on nest I decided to page my Dr at home. So the Dr called right back and he said it could be a miscarriage or it could be a UTI. He asked me to put in a tampon, not as far as I usually would, and see if there is blood on the tip. If so, this means miscarriage. If no blood, then I might have a UTI.

I did it twice and there was blood. This sucks! If this was the case, then I was to be on bed rest and I am assuming to go the Dr tomorrow morning. Too bad I am at work today! I am going to take it easy today and hopefully see the Dr first thing tomorrow.

Saturday

So I called the doctor on Friday and left a message. She wanted me to come in and get checked out. My cervix was closed so that's a good thing. They took my blood again but we won't find out until Monday. Another long weekend! I feel good. Not cramping. I don't feel bloated or like my belly is pushing out. I don't know if that is good or bad. We will see on Monday. As of Saturday, I am still bleeding a bit. Dark blood and it's not as much.

Timeline so far...

Start Date of last period: July 4, 2007

Ended period around July 9, 2007

Ovulation July 15-20

Supposed to start my period on August 1, it never showed.

We took 3 pregnancy tests over the course of 10 days and all were negative.

Went to the Doctor August 10 for a quick exam and blood test.

Results came back August 13 and it was positive. 50 Hcg. They wanted me to come back in for another blood test to be sure.

Took another pregnancy test on August 14 and there was a faint line meaning positive.

Went for blood work August 15.

I have been feeling bloated since August began but started cramping August 15 after dinner. It subsided overnight and August 16 I wiped in the morning and saw red-ish blood. More like a brownish color kinda. But but 9am, it was dark red. Waiting to hear from the doctor and I will ask her about the spotting.

Just got a call from my Gyno's nurse, Shatone. She confirmed the pregnancy! She said as long as the blood isn't bright red, I should be okay. It's probably due to "being intimate" on Tuesday evening. I can't wait to tell Mat but am going to try not to until he gets here on Saturday. Hopefully I will give him something special to break the news!

My levels were 19.4 progesterone. And 342 was my hcg. Good stuff!
So the bleeding continued today and when I got home from work it was really bright red. I worked out with no pad or tampon in. When I got back I took a shower and put in a pad. It's 11pm and it's pretty soaked with blood. So who knows what is going to happened but I think I will call the doctor tomorrow. She will probably tell me to come in and get my blood taken again. Whatever is best.

I was pretty amazing that this took on the first try so i do have to say that my expectations are not high. I am not really cramping but the bleeding is troublesome. It's scary seeing all that blood. But I have been reading on the message boards that several people bleed for awhile and there is usually not a reason!